Saturday, January 27, 2007
Jupiter and his toy
It’s raining here and I can’t help but write an entry about it, despite the amount of work I’m trying to get done right now :-) I’ve been sick but along comes the rainy season and I find myself feeling better.It’s Friday morning again. Tomorrow’s weekend again. How time flies. In six days’ time, I will hit the twentyfour-year mark of my life here. A lot has happened but some things have remained the same. I still miss my old friends every day. I still can’t get enough of meeting new people and crave to see more of the world each day. I still buy books and dvds like crazy and still have the habit of wondering why things happen the way they do.
So, it’s raining here and I’m overlooking the park outside through the big glass window. It’s remarkably soothing to see those drops of water fall from above and I can hear Jupiter’s having quite a good time with his little whip up there. I’m gonna go make myself some hot tea. I’m feeling good. Can you tell?
posted by D at 12:47 AM
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Wednesday, January 24, 2007
Put Me to Sleep
It’s late and my insomnia is back. Time seems to fly by real quickly these days and I’m grateful for it. At least I can pretend the weekends arrive faster than usual. I am struggling with this flu, though. My body’s just been acting really weird lately and I’m anxious to hear what the doc has to say about my blood test results.I’m knackered but I can’t sleep. Michael Bublé’s singing his beautiful rendition of Put Your Head On My Shoulder on my mp3 player.
Oh, how I wish.
posted by D at 5:40 PM
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Monday, January 22, 2007
Appreciation Day
This morning i discovered one new excitement in life: I woke up as a new person.
As i wrote this, the pages of my past was lingering in my head. It is amazing tho, how life has turned me upside down and yet i'm still here, not allowing myself for giving up, still surviving from every second. A question to ponder, if life is a long searching, in which point will i arrive?
But then i see the future's waiting for me to embrace, i have no choice but to step forward. Knowing on how strong and yet how weak i could be just made me realize the beauty of all misery, and i am relieved that i can still appreciate life even in its most painful part.
We are changing, we are evolving, each cell of our body is regenerating everyday, we are always a new person, with new challenges, new breath, new rhythm...so looking back, cursing and regretting only strains the neck muscles. Living the past is a weak and lonely business i believe, so f*ck it! I'm one step ahead now.
I'm one step ahead to enjoy my life of being alone, and also to appreciate the people i love, people i respect, people who taught me about how precious life is, people who shared me love and care and strength, people who showed me the sweet of sorrow, people who opened my eyes that one of the most important thing to find happiness in life is the conviction of being loved for yourself, or more correctly, being loved inspite of yourself.
Thank you, dearest friends, for bringing the lights for me and for believe in me.
Thank you, you know who you are....
posted by D at 3:43 PM
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I wanna meet people who inspire those around them with their posture alone but break hearts when they dance, people who are brave and sincere, people who know of other languages and cultures and are willing to share their knowledge with me, old books and photographs, music that I have to fall into....
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